Monday, October 30, 2017

A lot has happened since my last entry.  We are still in the renovation process but now I am working on my own renovation.  With each of my children I gained weight but I always had this notion that I would lose it eventually.  Well eventually never came.  After my fourth child I was the heaviest I had EVER been and NEVER thought I would weigh over 200 lbs in my life.  200lbs.!!! I was so discouraged.  I had been raised with a mom who was ALWAYS on me for my weight.  It came so easy for her.  She would count calories every day and weighed  110 lbs.  which she engrained in me that that is what I should weigh.  She had good intentions but the way she executed was horrible!  She put so much emphasis on my looks that I had zero self esteem.  I was always worried about my looks and NEVER felt good about myself no matter what I weighed.  I had been very active in my 20's and just assumed that I could lose the weight on my own with no problem.  I had tried Weight
Watchers and failed.  The program was great and it worked BUT I did not want to have to keep track of points all day and what I ate. And so I didn't.  By the time nighttime came around, I couldn't even remember what I had for breakfast.  A good friend of mine convinced me to join the gym with her.  She had lost 100lbs on her own and so I figured if she could do it so could I.  I loved the gym! It gave me that social interaction that I needed and I gained some great friends.  Well, I continued to go to the gym up until I was 8 months pregnant with my fourth child.  After she was born I struggle SO much! I wanted to go to the gym but had no time let alone the motivation to go.  I just used my kids as an excuse not to go.  I had also lost all my baby weight so I figured EVENTUALLY I could lose the rest.  Slowly I began to sink into a dark hole I that I was struggling to get out of.  Every day I would wake up with the thought "today I am going to do better.  I am going to eat better and start exercising."  That never happened.  I had zero energy! All I wanted to do was sleep.  So I did.  I would get the older kids off to school and at the time, my husband worked swings, so as soon as he would wake up, I would go back to bed for 3 hours until he had to leave for work.  I would then get up to take care of the two children we had at home.  I would feed them lunch and get them down for their afternoon naps and then...yes I would take a nap. 

I was talking to a friend one day and expressing my frustration.  She mentioned that after having a baby some women experience problems with their thyroid so I should get it checked.  I thought "yes! that must be it." If it was my thyroid and I got on medication I would lose all the weight and things would be good again. Right? Ha! I did go in and have my thyroid checked and everything else that could check.  My thyroid was ok but I was diagnosed with sleep apnea and I was pre-diabetic.  The doctor sat me down and went over the test results with me and was pretty frank.  He told me that I was overweight and needed to lose weight.  He told me that he wanted me to lose 10lbs.  in the next three months.  He was encouraging and told me I could do it.  10 lbs. in 3 months was doable. He told me he wanted me to come back in and we would run the tests again.  Well, I went home with a new determination to lose 10lbs.  That only lasted a couple days.  That was July of 2016.

May 2017 rolled around and I still had not lost the 10lbs I needed to.  In fact, I had actually gained 10+ lbs.  At the time I had a friend who suddenly started losing weight.  She had lost a lot of weight in a short amount of time.  I thought it was probably just another fad diet or something.  She told me a little bit about the program she was doing and explained that she got to eat brownies every night and that she loved the food.  I was very intrigued but also figured it wouldn't work for me because it was probably too expensive or I wouldn't like the food.  I watched her for a few months and one day she posted her before and after photo on Facebook.  WOW! She looked amazing! She had lost over 40lbs.!  I was sold.  I asked her to call me and explain the program.  She explained that it was a health and wellness program and that it focused on overall health not just weight loss.

 
October 2017 and I am now down 40lbs.!  NEVER in a million years did I think I could lose weight on my own let alone that much weight in such a short time.  I did it! It didn't take will power either.  It just took desire, consistency, and a "why".  The biggest thing I have gained over the last 6 months is Self-Esteem.  I feel so good about myself! I have a new excitement for life and I am excited for the future.  I wake up every morning and I can honestly say I look in the mirror and like what I see.  That hasn't ever happened.  NEVER.  I now have become a health coach and I have the opportunity to help others see their own dreams come true. It has been so inspiring to hear other people's stories and see them overcome struggles they have and find the same happiness I have found.

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